November 2011
iwontsayiloveyou:
My heart and soul yearns for a piece of paper, a pen to drip lovely words carelessly hoping to create something beautiful. Hoping to create something worth reading.
Thanksgiving
spending thanksgiving with someone elses family…………..its weird ya know i mean because my family would never be like this…shopping for hours for Christmas presents decorating trees….drinking together(wait actually my family does drink together and alone)…..and it make me sad ya know…..i see people happy and its like is this wat im missing is this the...
scream!!!
and she says yes……
nothing too serious…..we arent even dating bt she said yes to me getting to know her better……………that blew my mind..since day 1 i always thought dont try cuz you are not good enuf for her that u shouldnt get your hopes up….but she said…
yes…….(freaking)…because its like now wat?
i hope i dont...
shivers
i get shivers down my spine wen i think about you..your name should have left my mind the moment i left the country..but seeing you hurt more than tellin a computer screen how much it hurts to miss you till i feel physical pain..i know you tell me you miss me but really you wish id talk to u less cuz then u wouldnt be constantly reminded of how much you shattered me…i think about you in...
shattered
i did’nt know you could break a heart that is already broken…but you managed to„„my pieces were crawling back together lying to itself that a full whole heart hurts less…well then you shattered me…you made my skin crawl out of disgust for myself for letting me be stupid a naive girl again..you say it not me its you but u were different before you met me before...
everyday...
everyday is a mystery now i thought i had everything figured out.
like when u think theres a step and then u trip because theres nothing there..i feel like my step has been taken out from under me leaving me searching for meaning in a world i cant comprehend. my words dont mean anything to me anymore i no longer write poetry or songs and its killing me to have this built up creativity in me that...
